i'm waiting .......

So today's topic is patiences... when is enough, enough? Or how long until one is fed up with a situation? Are good things really worth waiting for or do we have to go out and take what we want?! I need feedback and it doesn't matter who you are or where you're from or why you are reading this just tell me your thoughts... please :)

k thanks

Makes Me Happy!

In no particular order here is my list of things that make me happy.....

1. Finding new flavors of gum in the checkout lane
2. Revisiting the place where I grew up (mentally or physically)
3. Going to concerts and hearing live music
4. Getting my hair done ( always puts a smile on my face)
5. Waking up to a nice message (voice or text) from anyone
6. Listening to the rain outside my window when I'm falling asleep
7. Big old houses
8. Babies laughing
9. Fall scenery
10. The first snowfall of the season
11. Cute baby animals
12. Knowing that my Mom loves me no matter what
13. Airplanes taking off and landing
14. Learning about different people from places I have only dreamed of going
15. The smell in the air when it's about to rain
16. Ogden's Softball Park
17. Midnight Monday - Friday
18. My Mom's Chicken and Noodles
19. 2am phone calls just to share a new song my friend wrote
20. The thought that one day everything will fall into place in my life
21. The movie Billy Maddison
22. Making Scrambled eggs the way my Grandma taught me
23. Remembering my Grandparents
24. Older Couples walking hand in hand
25. Having good friends around to joke and goof off with { or make cakes with ;-) }

now this is only the first 25 that David requested that I make so I'm sure there will be more to come because there are sooooo many things that make me happy.... and yet there are soooo many things that make me not sooooo happy but that isn't a list I want to make.

So Unsexy

Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood
Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could

Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind

Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated
Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me
Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated

When will you stop leaving baby?
When will I stop deserting baby?
When will I start staying with myself?

Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
The moment I decide not to abandon me

~Alanis Morissette

wut it is...

i dunno wut it is that makes me smile.. i dunno wut it is that i want in life.. i dunno wut it is that makes me wonder all night.. or wut it is that makes me sad.. all i do know is that ......